Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Almost a New Year

This morning, as I sat drinking my coffee and thinking about this year, I realized that I have come a long way in how I feel about certain things. This year has had ups and downs like most years, but I think that I have two major hurdles crossed. One is cleaning my home and making it a more loving, peaceful and welcoming place. The other is my attitude towards myself. I do believe that I am "FLY"ing. FINALLY LOVING YOURSELF as "FLY"Lady" would say. I have gotten rid of the negative voices from my past that have always been in my head and kicking me down. I am not saying that they don't creep back in once in awhile, but for the most part, they are gone.
I was raised believing that I was worthless. That all I was put on this planet for was to be used and abused. I am not talking physical abuse even tho that also happened in my life. I am speaking of the mental and emtional abuse that I have suffered in my life. I have come to terms with that and I am now able to see that it was wrong and that I deserved so much more. So, I now stop and smell the roses and do things that make me happy and show myself that I love me. It doesn't take much to make me happy. I enjoy a lot of simple things in life. Spending time with my dh. Talking to my dc on the phone or the computer, reading a book, taking a relaxing bubble bath, or watching  movie, spending time with friends.  Things that I was no longer doing because of the evil voices in my head.
I hope that everyone stops to smell the roses today and does something that makes themselves feel like they are loved. It is a awesome feeling!!!!!
Hugs and Prayers

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Moving slow

I am definitely moving slow this morning. I have CPS (chronic pain syndrome) in my body and some mornings, I just don't want to move. Today is one of those days......LOL I have been up since 5 this morning, but just now got on the computer. So, I really got to enjoy my quiet time praying, having coffee and enjoying the sunrise.
I usually don't talk a lot about my CPS, but do want people to understand that even if you can't see someone's disability doesn't mean that they aren't disabled in some way. Just last night, I was yelled at for parking in the handicapped parking. Yes, I do have a permit for parking there. The police were even called and I had my letter stating that I was able to do that. This person, just went on ranting and raving about how wrong it is that they (the state) could let someone like me (not looking disabled) park there. According to this person my only problem is that I am fat.
How I wish that was my only problem......LOL That is one problem that I can and am trying to change.
Yesterday, was a good day. I did get some cleaning done and watched what I ate. I do need to start drinking more water, but did get in 6 glasses, so am pleased about that. I will do better on that today by adding at least one more glass. I do need to start getting some sort of exercise in. If it was warmer out, I would take my dog for a walk at the park, but it is just to cold to do that and I seem to hurt more when it is cold. I do have WATP (walk away the pound) cd so will have to find that and use it.
Hope you have a great day
Hugs and Prayers

Monday, December 29, 2008

A Brand New Day

Morning. My favorite time of the day. I greet the

sunrise with a fresh cup of coffee and a prayer. I

than start planning my day.

There are certain things that I have been trying

to do on a daily basis. I started using "FLY"Lady

on New Years Day and believe me it has really helped.

Not just in cleaning my home, but helping me to under-

stand other things in my life.

I realize that I am not perfect and no matter who

expects me to be, they will either accept me as I am

or stay out of my life. I will not have people in my

life that say or do things to make me feel worthless.

I use to put up with a lot of that and I have finally

decided that I am worth so much more.

Right now as I sit at my kitchen table, with my coffee,

I am enjoying the flowers that my dear husband bought

for me last night. I thank God for him daily. We have been

through a lot of differant things, but no matter what I know

that he loves me for me.

I do need to get a few things done before he gets up and

we start our day together. I need to look at my morning

routine and finish it.

I hope that everyone takes the time to enjoy the day

and smile about something today

Hugs and Prayers

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Daily Life

I am hoping to use this blog to record things that are
going on in my daily life. I will be trying to do so many
things this new year. For example, losing weight, using
"FLY"Lady and over comming many things.

I am 46 yrs old, happily married to awesome man and
have a almost 20 yr old. I have two fur babies. I love
the outdoors and gardening. I have health issues and
try to make each day better than the last.

Hugs and Prayers to all